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Post by ladylinda on Jun 5, 2015 9:46:03 GMT -5
Elegy for the victims of the Troubles:
our blood stained the brown earth red, and even though flowers sprouted on our graves they too faded. For years mothers wept at the loss of children, girls fell silent as their sweethearts died, and within the survivors love ebbed away, replaced at best by an abstract pity, at worst by hatred and coldness inside
all the bravado of the bullying 'war' as the men in balaclavas robbed a generation of the chance to love, denied homecoming to parent, sibling, child, who emerged instead into as empty a world as the cold steel of the assassins' heart
the living remember, and need to tell the new generation the truth so long denied by IRA and UDA alike, that it was neither inevitable nor necessary for so much innocent blood to be shed, that the trumpeted cause was never worth all the murder, that for all the beatings, the knee-cappings, all the tarring and feathering, all the bombings and shootings - all futile, evil exertions, an attempt through fear to make people groan into slow surrender - achieved nothing
battered and bruised with the long years of suffering, still we need to rediscover how to kiss, to hug, be open, not look forever over our shoulder, check our car for bombs, wonder if we dare open the door - we must learn to love and trust again
taig and prod, republican, nationalist, unionist, all need to reach out beyond the limitations of ideology across the contours of hope and embrace life, its love and joy
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Post by ladylinda on Jun 14, 2015 17:46:08 GMT -5
The Decision:
new life grows within me: I feel joy and pride. Then the doctor rips away both feelings
in casual callousness he says: 'I would advise a termination.' Why? I demand to know his reasons
in his Social Darwinist way he tells me 'your child has certain genetic defects.' I press him for more information and he tells me what to expect
oh, just as houses fall down when an earthquake erupts around them, so too my heart, so full of nurturing love towards my firstborn, froze to a stalactite
oh, such a little thing! how easily we flush away a life as if it had no value, no existence, no purpose but to be destroyed
inside me was a small expanse of life, my baby housing, keeping you alive, how could I throw away, deny my love and void him like my excrement?
and so it was I chose to keep my chal, and even though the doctor's words were true - spina bifida, dyspraxia, Asperger's - I don't regret the choice I made
duty over selfishness, caring over lack of empathy, love over cold indifference, life over death
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Post by ladylinda on Jun 14, 2015 17:46:57 GMT -5
Apologia pro vita sua
of course it's only vanity to imagine everyone will like you; no matter what you say or do, to some you're a curmudgeon, unfeeling bitch, or downright evil twat
what seems to some despicable behaviour to others looks like honesty and kindness, and there are times when cowardice seems braver than acquiescing in the PC blandness
the heart of all of us is an intricate fabric woven out of many joys, loves, tears; its workings are too complex to be a matrix, its many labyrinths hide many snares
heart is infinitely deeper and bigger than the aspersions, jeers, seeking to wound, perhaps to drive away with poisoned dagger the expression of unwanted thoughts or sound
pain, tears and blood are common to us all: even the worst of us are sometimes sad; all of our lives flow through the dark canal, all of us actors in life's great charade
to you, life's simple, all the answers known; no room for doubt, questioning, disbelief; you wear with ease the paste-bedecked gown, as valueless as the fig-leaves worn by Eve
if perhaps I disconnect is it because your world is so removed from actual feeling, suffering, that in fact perhsps it's you, not me, who's never loved?
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Post by ladylinda on Jun 14, 2015 17:47:35 GMT -5
Britain 2015
We are alive, in spite of the deadness around us, the apathy, unwillingness to act, the fear of passion, openness, expression of feelings too removed from the common herd, who seem always to linger, watching us for secret signals of dissenting thoughts, and yes, in theory it's allowed to voice contrary opinions, thought if you do so in earshot of the wrong people you will be hounded, traduced, trashed, even attacked. The day of 'thought crime' and 'newspeak' so long upon us now we hardly notice how conditioned we are as only robotic platitudes are heaved out of mouths stuck in attitudes half-believed
as Wyndham Lewis wrote: 'what wind serves to advance an honest mind' or as Yeats said: 'the best lack all conviction, while the worst are full of passionate intensity' or as Lawrence wrote, 'oh build your ship of death, for you will need it, for the voyage of oblivion awaits you'
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Post by ladylinda on Jun 16, 2015 17:10:04 GMT -5
The Vanishing Road
1) we walked along a street we did not know, hearing the mocking laughter of pursuit ring in our ears, feeling the hunger gnaw away inside, though wrapped up in the sheet of love surrounding us, we shivered, as everywhere we felt the coldness settle, and both our living voices harshly quavered at the assault of those to whom we're cattle, and the clouds above us seemed like predatory wings of mythical monsters out to work us harm, and though we felt their claws like chains or thongs seek to restrain us, somehow we stood firm until the nightmare caught us in its spell, and wound us in with its unending spool
2) we found ourselves outside the known parameters of time and space; the Thames, the Mississippi, vanishing along with Earth's perimeters into a void where no one could be happy, till somehow through the wormhole we emerged to see the ghosts of those long dead staring into our own blank facesl eyes enlarged as if on drugs, we felt the constant steering of our unwilling selves towards some end beyond our comprehension. Then, eyes agape, we saw ourselves in a dreadful sarabande dance at the end of the executioner's rope while round us others dangled from the gallows by the riverbank overhung with willows
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Pislikurja, save me if you can! I strive, I struggle, to escape this street where all around I see our murdered kin and know we too will share the self-same fate. Where are you? I no longer hear your voice, your clear blue eyes, your soft pink skin, recedes into a freezing fog denser than ice, and all my tears dissolve as your vision fades you, like the road, distant as ash and embers from the living heat and glow of our yog's true flame, on this new road with neither patrin nor cambers we see no mountain of hope we still may climb, only a crumbling pathways pocked with holes, not the alluring tracks of hills and dales
4) oh, our sad freedom, flickering and lost like a dowsed beacon from a far-off land and we, lovers in spite of all, are cast into the cold and dark; their laws rescind all natural kindness, all that smells or sounds of joy, of laughter, love; frozen to blocks of giant ice statues, they close up the wounds of pain or happiness, cut down with their axe all things that make us human, make us smile, touch each other tenderly, shed tears, show care to others - all dismissed, the world makde small into a prison camp or abattoir, and our forsaken hearts can only flutter defiantly, before at last we shatter
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Post by ladylinda on Jun 16, 2015 17:12:04 GMT -5
Unacknowledged legislators
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out of rough rock we hew stars, constellations, planets, the hammers we wield coax music out of blank whiteness, our tongues become silver, fleshed out of pebbles and breezes, water and leaf, fracking with ardent love the precious shale gas out of the earth till all our energy is fit for purpose
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even in darkness we see, grasp, make actual the hidden light and colour, the stream of language flowers out of us, softening the harsh timber of uncut oaks, moistening the bricks so that the mortar of inspiration and honest perspiration can be the cement binding them to a home in which we all can live
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the individual, separate monads of us are far from windowless, each one, through love divided, regains selfhood in the diversity within unity till the living water of the ink we spill upon virgin paper, like a blank canvas is touched by our artist's hands and shimmers with light and colour
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out of our secret shames we educe the refulgent daylight, we are fed by fleeting impressions, given form by the insensate, darkness within us turned to glittering splendour and the fragrance of perfect roses
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out of the storm raging in sea and sky, earthquakes upthrusting from the ground, out of the garbage strewn across the land, the glint of sunlight on a smashed beer bottle, all these are either images or thoughts we turn to radiant beauty
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our tears, our screams of pain, the horror haunting our dreams, our eyes, washed by the moonlight, our voices, suspended in a stasis where actual time and space no longer function or at least matter, we evolve patterns and sounds to decorate and teach
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words bedeck the world, casting their tiny jewels upon us all, and we, shapers of this strange craft, where sculpture, music and painting join build our strange ships of verse, bid them depart upon the oceans of the world, our sails made out of breath, and with a fair wind and kindly weather can be carried over the most turbulent seas and perhaps even heal, or at least alleviate the woe and wounds of the earth on which we live and, hopefully, also love
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Post by ladylinda on Jun 17, 2015 12:01:11 GMT -5
If only:
if only I was a horse, galloping proudly across lush fields, telling myself I'd soon ride my way to freedom
if only I was a planet, whirling in orbit around a warming sun that gave me light and heat nothing could hurt me, no one could blame me for anything
if only I was a flower, budding, then blooming, perhaps cut and placed in a vase of water, admired and praised till I withered and died
if only I was a swallow flying above our circumstancial earth, a critical surveyor of the landscape, scavenging the little I need to build my nest and feed my chicks
if only I was the ocean, breaking in waves against rugged cliffs, softening in time the harshness of rock to the fineness of sand
if only I was the wind, chastising the world with my cold breath, warming it with my summer breezes and cooling the arid air
if only I stood outside the terrible limitations of time and space, the instinctive, perpetual fear of change, mortality, fragility and the measuring stick cutting us down to size
but I am none of these: only a helpless human in an alien world where chance, destiny, danger toy with me for their sport
if I was anything other than what I am it would not matter that death will corrode me, that every second of my life I age, grow closer to the dust to which I must return
what I am, I am; I wish I was anything other than what I am
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Post by ladylinda on Jun 18, 2015 8:48:37 GMT -5
You'll leave me, but:
I know some day you'll leave me: not because we haven't both been true to one another, but that we both dwell within death's shadow; nothing we can do will lift that stern miasma from our shoulders, and we can only try to live each day as well as we or any others will, or can. Whether beside the Calder, the Severn, Aire, Wharfe, Graveney, Thames, even the trickling River Wandle, we'll walk, where waters pass us by, hand in hand, our loving dandle as restless as the ocean's spray
all that I know is we must leave each other, and I hope and pray although that passing makes us grieve we'll met in heaven again some day. and each shall wait until the other joins together, reunited, a love too strong for death to smother, we'll be eternally delighted
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Post by beth on Jun 18, 2015 9:46:03 GMT -5
You'll leave me, but: I know some day you'll leave me: not because we haven't both been true to one another, but that we both dwell within death's shadow; nothing we can do will lift that stern miasma from our shoulders, and we can only try to live each day as well as we or any others will, or can. Whether beside the Calder, the Severn, Aire, Wharfe, Graveney, Thames, even the trickling River Wandle, we'll walk, where waters pass us by, hand in hand, our loving dandle as restless as the ocean's spray all that I know is we must leave each other, and I hope and pray although that passing makes us grieve we'll met in heaven again some day. and each shall wait until the other joins together, reunited, a love too strong for death to smother, we'll be eternally delighted That's very sweet, Lin. Thanks for adding it. In fact, all these new ones are excellent.
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Post by ladylinda on Jun 21, 2015 17:16:25 GMT -5
Thanks for your kind words, Beth. I wrote the last one because Mike will be 57 soon and as I'm 20 years younger I'm conscious that probably he will leave me before I leave him.
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Post by ladylinda on Jun 21, 2015 17:17:28 GMT -5
Some short brevity pieces I've written recently:
The Earth awaits:
the grass is thirsty: for thousands of years it has demanded its tribute of blood to water it
humans continue to feed it ***************************** The clouds:
the clouds above slide along their hidden substrate, indifferent to our fate ********************************** the cold ocean:
the retreating sea abandons in regular betrayal the scarred face of the land it lately loved, that weeps its stony loss into brittle sand ***************************** snail:
my soft frame carries on my back a shell that is my tent, my roof, my living home, gypsified as animal can be, I dwell within myself, and slowly, very slowly, roam across dry land, though out of ocean made, seeking for plants upon which I may feed, crawling through earth, eternally afraid my shell will break, and my black blood bleed upon the hostile landscape of the soil, making a final end of all my useless toil
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Post by ladylinda on Sept 12, 2015 17:03:50 GMT -5
Dispossed:
hope floats a little boat into the middle sea and rides the chariot of the waves, jostled from land through unforgiving water, hoping to make landfall, crammed on decks and gazing anxiously across the ocean
each imagines they will soon be free and no longer lying awake in expectation of early graves or the casual molestation of furious slaughter that has made each one bend their necks in concealment from the perpetual commotion
is it possible here to arrive safely? boats are treacherous, often not seaworthy, and the currents too frequently sweep around their fragile vessels, fuelled largely by the helium of hope, and perhaps the kindness of strangers
out of their battered hearts they make notes full of the weeping soul of the Levant, and while the waves buffet them like a pestle and mortar, still they slowly grope towards a landing, and an end of dangers
our hearts must open to receive their human cargo and not forget how once, a couple heard the words, 'no room at the inn.' let no embargo lead us to drive away the wounded herd of those who seek for refuge in our lands: let us instead stretch out our helping hands
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Post by ladylinda on Sept 18, 2015 15:48:05 GMT -5
Shabby Messiah
We have waited a long time to hear the sound of trumpets announcing the imminent arrival (or at least the promise) of a future where freedom, fairness and compassion define the world (or at least our nation)
today we heard a clock chime and it was clearly an utter trouncing of those considered to have been remiss in even their lip-service to the formerly out of fashion but now suddenly trendy ideology of frustration
enemies identified as rapidly as a blind man spots an indistinct patch of colour or a deaf man gives a pitch perfect recitation and with a joyless howl of approved revolt gazes drifted into the blue yonder
speeches flowed; though they were vapidly constructed and delivered, even duller than reading endless rows of multiplication tables, to the true believers they struck like a thunderbolt; articles of faith, no cause to doubt or ponder
so it is that cults acclaim a new Messiah, watch him strip the flower from the rose, leaving them the thorny briar, promising that he'll depose their enemies, raising them higher, and on their foes he will foreclose to grant them all their heart's desire
their would-be saviour is cheered as he stands on the pavement, promising behaviour conducive to their perpetual enslavement
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Post by ladylinda on Sept 18, 2015 15:49:27 GMT -5
Sweet surrender:
to yield is not to show weakness, nor is it that with some fastidious distaste I wipe away the dirt and sweat of me after our entwined bodies have shared their passion
each face glows and shimmers through the dark room, shining eyes dazzle like precious gems, set in the plainness of our ordinary flesh, our smiling silence a symphony of music
there's no neglect of selfhood, nor any failure to grasp the essential otherness we have, even when we merge ourselves in one in the sparkling ecstasy of union
there's no contempt for either, no falsehood of feeling, counterfeiting love, and in ourselves we are more truly alive when each to the other gives the little death, our cries piercing the night
our exhausted passion still glistens like an emerald, the sheen of our sweatt luminous as ice, and we emerge out of the storm's lightning into a quiet pool where we lie still, the light of our candle snuffed, that we may sleep
my yielding is no cowardice, and when the thrust of you enters me I am not violated, conquered by you; I rejoice in your invasion as your erect sentry liberates me
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Post by ladylinda on Oct 3, 2015 15:25:07 GMT -5
Lament for the victims in Oregon:
in the school of hard knocks the doors have no locks
love is the unpardonable sin and burns the hand that seeks to enter in the room where the vicious east wind tears out the heart of everyone that's kind
there is only darkness over the face of the water but it is not the spirit of God moving towards slaughter
the rust beats its metallic tinkle on the barren earth like the indifferent sprinkle of a garden hose, watering flowers and weeds alike, and the stone inside what was once a heart plunges like a shrike
it is time for the killing fields again, time for the smoke of hatred to inflict pain
dirt and greyness and unbearable heat crouch to the trigger; from his judgement seat he deals out death to those who stand for love, blasting young lives with his dogmatic shove
in the school of hard knocks there are no lessons, only endless shocks
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